comes with nothing, ends with nothing - 三粒蛋之声

做sales的EQ要很高！

2011-12-22T16:26:00.002+08:00

都不懂是我倒大霉还是他倒大霉，一切事情就是那么的不顺利！

故事由此：
一天下午，突然接到一通说要买我们产品的顾客，我好不容易说服到让他选择我们与其别人。但福中不是福。但愿他当初跟别人拿了算了。
原本答应说两个礼拜内能拿到货，却因为一些事故拖了一个礼拜才来货。然后货终于送过来了，却被知是个烂货！得送货去！要是我是那顾客，也会气到爆啦！结果叻，就通过电话，接收了一些毒话。哎~~~~

心情烦躁！今天还是冬至！没有那种心情啊~~~~

希望一切顺利啦！！！我好讨厌麻烦啊！

虽然受了点委屈，但是心里真的很过意不去。同事说做sales就是要备有EQ高！
但是，我EQ真的不高。有时会按耐不住而流泪啊，乱骂啊~之类的！

哎~~~~~~

好久不见，别来无恙吗？

2011-12-20T21:12:00.002+08:00

天啊，几乎一年没碰部落格了。
很快啊，从学生升级到上班族。。。

原来以前一直盼望的上班族生活并不是如此简单，单纯！虽然是份不错的工作，但是却不是我梦寐以求的生活。说真的，我每天都在盼望假期的来临，这能说是对工作的热诚吗？不！

但也好，同事们对我的照顾不是那么的差，一帮年轻伙儿，就是那么贪玩！

新年接近了！有种喜悦，又有种忧伤。希望一切都顺利吧！

是酱的咯，年纪老了，头脑颓废了，一切都随时间而变了。。。

wat the hell! i missed someone alot!

2011-03-17T21:58:00.002+08:00

avril lavigne new album was released and i dun think im gonna get one... lolololol.... im no longer her fans but yet i still damn like her songs.... * thumbs up *

nah nah nah.... that's why i hate to be alone here and doing nothing... even though there is bulky assignments waiting me to complete but not in the mood.... ishhh..... im just so lazy and like to slumbering....

Just thinking back and found out there is quite sometime i did not post or updating any news on this blog.... excuse is timeless, actual is laziness... haha

but i guess it doesnt matter, since it has been neglected by most of viewer T___T"

Having this on it is to prove that I AM REALLY FREE NOW....... sien...zzzzZZZ

my babe is engaged, my parents are out, my sibling is pampering her baby girl, my grandma is watching tv ....zzzZZZZzzz.... and im in the room facing the pc most of the time and see what can share out and gossip in the facebook. lolz.

why is my babe engaged at this moment, im just so sien without her.... seriously, im really not use to it.....gao miang ahhh.....

wish she will be coming back for me later... muahahaha..... but the "later" probably will be two weeks later.... ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

有点累了，怎么办？

2011-01-16T00:54:00.002+08:00

这几个月却是很多感想。
越是甜，越是爱，就越痛。
太过于在乎，反而让自己被一点小事而伤痕累累，满脸泪水。
有时就只要那一句很简单的话，一封几个字的讯息，就会把心情降到谷底。
是太过于在乎吗？
这样的心情；双方都辛苦。

Year of 2011

2011-01-09T22:04:00.002+08:00

Just a glance, another year has comes.

Another sem to graduate.

Another life is coming.

I just couldn't imagine that we are going to separate. Not to say it has been "ensure". But it has a big possibility. Holy shit i really cant imagine. Years we have been together. It is not a long period but it seems we have passed through lot of moments. Was recalled back the day you called me up talking about our future, we cried cause we cannot foreseen our future, it is a mystery.

Looking forward to my new semester. HAH!! i felt that im so depressed on it. Guess i could not scored a good grade for my final year. Lose my confident badly due to my previous sem results as well as the legendary FYP. I got a STRICT, MEAN, EMOTIONAL, HIGH EXPECTATION advisor with me. Im so sad and afraid to meet her. AIKS. Wonder why others are so good with their advisor. ='(

Challenges ...

More and more challenges,

more and more to fight for,

more and more to think,

more and more tears to fall,

more and more white hair to grows.....

More and more...

Yeah, that's life.

Awful year.

2010-12-27T03:10:00.003+08:00

It seems that i've been disappeared for some time. Was preparing many stuffs for previous months. However, busy life comes to the end and started my break =)

For the passed few months, many bad things happen. Especially during November, almost every night i've dropped my tears. It was so suffocating, my exam, my assignments, my final year project and my dad health's problems. Very sad to know that, he was having a heart attack everyday for 2-3 hours average. It can be a very dangerous, almost able to take away his life. Doctor was advised to do operation but get refused. He insists his right, his choice, his life. But he never knows that this would make us worry.

Until now, 4 months passed, even though he is keep telling us that he is getting better. But at behind my mum told me he still suffered the pain every night before sleep. The pain was indescribable. Cant breath, cant talk, cant hear......

and she told me he may left anytime. and this always make me cry.

Not only my dad, my dearest aunt also facing severe health problem and needed to do operation. On her brain. A decease called "Epilepsy", her daughter called me few days ago that she was entered Sentosa Hospital.

Tomorrow i still have to go to the hospital for listening what doctor says about her condition.

Gosh, this year was a bad year for me. Luckily got my babe beside me giving me lots of support and encouragement.

and now.... i hope everything will be alright. God bless. amitoufo...

难。

2010-12-23T02:18:00.002+08:00

尝试去习惯没有你的日子。

但是更让我想起你。

原来改掉习惯，真的很难。

MidPoint presentation

2010-11-26T19:40:00.002+08:00

it has been a while i did not visit my blog here.

The month of November, seems a worst and unlucky month for me.

why dis i say so?

Here the lists....

1. Car Accident

2. Three Assignments due date

3. Two Presentation, one of them i get a bad result (guessing).

4. MY FYP (final year project) Midpoint. This was the ONE i real worry about it.

Final year now, should doing for the graduation report. Was selected Xixili Intima as my project backbone; which to increase support services and improve their online performance; was suppose to interview with their supervisor but get rejected. AIKS.

This is not the matter, what's bother me is " I get a strict advisor for my project". The supervisor for my project is a pleasant lady, However; advisor is a strict, fierce and mean lady.... arhhh... what a big contrast huh.

This week is the week of my midpoint presentation, in which i have to prepare all my presentation materials and present them to my Advisor face to face, one to one. "GOSH"

p/s: Every final year student is a must to do fyp and guided by own supervisor and advisor.

Moreover, HER requirements are higher than every advisor did, I CONFIRMED. Most of the student requested to complete their fyp untill chapter 3, but for me is exception, "CHAPTER 5". i should claps and wooooraaaay that i got a best advisor for pushing me that fast. THANKS.

However, i still left one more chapter to go, which is chapter 5 "Research Analysis". I wish i could finish it before Monday. Then left 1 more day for me to get myself prepare.

Another 2 weeks come to my final. Yeahhh..... is time to be a book worm.

情绪化

2010-10-24T18:31:00.002+08:00

很低落，低落到心情跌进谷底。
无法叙说，因为根本就不能用语言来说明。
只是希望能够得到不问原因的安慰。

我也希望自己的情绪不会影响到对方，自己也很想逃得远远。
但是，就是走不了。
很讨厌这样，
就因为这样，我做不了该做的东西。
很懊恼。

我想一个人在适当的时候静一静，把所有不快乐，压抑的感情，通过泪水来舒缓。

现在一个人。
就是这个时候。

伤痕累累。

2010-10-09T15:01:00.004+08:00

这个星期真是血光之期呀。

扭伤了颈，磨伤了手，撞伤了脚等等。

偏体鳞伤。

瘀伤满体。

天啊~

加上assignment之期已到。

可是真的很懒的动它。

总之，就是衰呀。

Mcd 1st day launch - Black Pepper spicy chicken Mcdeluxe

2010-10-07T23:28:00.002+08:00

Woohooooooo.... im admirer of MCD.
Finally they had launched their new product which is Black Pepper Spicy Chicken Mcdeluxe.
Actually last saturday i had been keep mumbling for this EPIC product.
Finally today i got it ^^
It tastes nice. NICE!!!!!
But one of my friend did not agree. Maybe he was calling for deliver. So it tastes different.
But from what i tasted is NICE.GOOD.DELICIOUS.

7 days in Ipoh (Mid term Break)

2010-10-06T01:50:00.005+08:00

Last Monday 26/9/2010, i was followed my lilttle babe back to her hometown, Ipoh.
The Ist stepped in Ipoh.... i was sick!!!
OMG, what a bad luck for me.
At the first and second day, i was sick like hell and did not enjoy at all, only suffering and keep drink herbal tea in Ipoh. But also thanks to her that taking care of me on that time, sob sob, touching....
After the two terrible days, my illness was getting better.
So on the third day, i begged my babe bring me for a movie and foods....

Here they go on my following days....

绿豆冰+釀料+叻沙（大树脚）

cendol（兵如港大街）

云吞面（Ipoh Stadium)

鱿鱼片(Ipoh Stadium)

鸡丝河粉（旧街场天津）

东粉蟹（巴占，味不同食馆）

清蒸啦啦（巴占，味不同食馆）

Medicure for myself in Ipoh, RM30

炒白糕（大树脚）

Forget to take down what we eat, but it was delicious!!

This Asam Laksa is damn nice!!! but i forgot to take down the noodles =(

河嘻（some kind like fish ball noodles）

极乐洞 ( Is a Cave, very nice view inside the cave. )

wantan soup (云吞)

怡保河粉

怡保芽菜鸡（安记）

Found this very special parking coupon in Ipoh. RM0.30 for half an hour.

There are many things i din capture down, but Ipoh is a very good place for eating!!!

At the last day, i was followed my babe and her mum went to Hot Spring in Tambun. It is established by Sunway Group, there are many types of Hot Spring, got Sauna as well. 9 Different pools with only RM12 per entry. It is quite affordable. By the way, you can also enjoy meal on the Hot spring. Whoever go to Ipoh, is a MUST to try out.

中秋节快乐

2010-09-23T18:56:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was a special festive for chinese which is called 中秋节 in chinese.

Some kind of house gathering festive.

Relatives from far away will gather together and chit-chat for hours. Some foods must be prepared for the day.

These are them:

chinese tea

mooncake with dry skin (normal) keep in cool place.

mooncake with freeze skin

(must be put in fridge to keep it cold, to avoid its skin become sticky)

lattern (many kids like to play it, with the candle inside to bright it up)

This festive is one of the chinese cultural which chinese cannot miss it. Some of the family will do some prays for the moon. 所谓的拜月亮。不是户户都会祭拜。祈求平安。

In this day i went to one of my friend's house to join them for the celebration. so bad i did not take much photo, only one for my babe. haha.

she was playing candles...

this is some kind of NUTS that i ever seen. haha.

牛角

cathy birthday & new member in my house.

2010-09-20T16:50:00.005+08:00

last 2 days, was 919.
Attending my pretty friend - cathy's birthday.
Was at Tao, The Curve.
Sexybabe, sexybabe's friend, chuiyan, miaozai, kuang mui and i were attending the party.
We hang there till midnight 3am something then went to yamcha at kepong at 4am something.
WAO..... and i was drunk!!! hahahaha.... quite "SYOK"!!!
we hug and kiss each other in the party, and the music was so nice which can lead us to the extreme feel!!!

At the same time, 2am something, my sis has born her 1st babe. Is a girl, how awaresome.
A new family member born comes to our life. haha.

3.53kg

Keep redesign redesign redesign finally YEAH!!!

2010-09-17T15:16:00.004+08:00

Recently get a web design job, we takes a month to finish, suppose to finish within 1 week but keep delay delay delay due to unsatisfaction of the client. yish!!!!
But finally has almost done ^^

money faster come to meeeeeeee.....

Today babe's car got ANTSSSSS... and their EGGSSSSSS AGAIN!!!!
OMGGGGG....

Devil - silly movie

2010-09-17T02:12:00.004+08:00

Today went to Midvalley for a midnight movie with gang of friends. The movie, which is called " Devil"....
My rate for this movie : 1 star.
Opinion will be : SILLY, STUPID, LAME, WASTED TIME.

only an hour more movie. oh gosh. this is a shortest movie i had seen in cinema!!! ISH....

red bump on my body.

2010-09-15T16:43:00.005+08:00

red bumps.... spread very fast, everyday different part....

Dunno whether is allergic or what. some red bumps just keep appearing on my body, hand, leg, finger, back..... everywhere. it looks like being sting by mosquito! But.... i din see any mosquito in my room, my house, or even in school? Since last few days i ate at outside being sting by few mosquito then the red bumps continuous spread all over my body!!! WHY???

i cant sleep well at the night cause of the itchiness!!! it's all over my body!! GOSHHHH.................
please tell me what's wrong with me?

=(

Hebe Album, i finally get one! From my dearest babe!

2010-09-15T01:58:00.007+08:00

yeah! i finally get Hebe's album!!

Yesterday babe came back from Ipoh, we was chit-chating like usual, suddenly she showed me something from her bag, it was HEBE's album!!! OMG!!! i was so shocked, and almost tears drop!!! of course i dint at the end. hehe. but really thanks to her. I'd love Hebe so much. I was told her to buy me but she told me she dint have such money to buy me, but.... at the end........

Really thanks her so much!! LOVE U babe =)

Honey birthday =)

2010-09-13T19:11:00.008+08:00

Last 2 days was having a celebration with jowel and a gang of jimuis in The garden @ The Curve.
It is a very nice environment but with bad service!!!!
I need to post a shortout of this!!!
A VERY BAD SERVICE!!!

why?
coz.....

My friends has been ordered some drinks but hours more never reach....
Requesting something from them but never come to us......
Asking for bill but have to wait 20mins above.....
Waving up my hand for calling them no body see me..... even waitresses was passing by.... and im not short, if asking Florence to wave i can understand why they cant see the tiny hand, but im in HUGE size k.

FINE.
and their attitude?? Oh my god...... like so lanci (arrogant)!!! ishhh......

This was my 2nd dine in The Garden, the 1st time is so good service i never expect it will became like THIS....ishhh..... full of disappointed and felt so sorry to the birthday girl =(

However, celebration will still go on...

me & Darling

Pretty Jowel (honey)

me & Jowel & Florence (sweetheart)

4 of us =)

After The Garden we went to Kota Damansara Giza Sunway to have 2nd round gathering, which is a small K box ^^
we have a sing (1 hour) for rm22 =) and we cuts cake at there too.

quite fun, and sweet =)
friendship forever =)

daddy mummy FACEBOOK tutorial~

2010-09-10T23:35:00.005+08:00

Funny thingssssssssssssss....
see my dad and mum, guess what are they doing?
They are FACEBOOK-ING!!!
is learning~
cute right?
haha.

mum: hey hey, why cant comment on photo?
dad: aiyooor... i also dunno man (scratch head)

mum: ugrh.... really screwed me up!!
dad: ==" me too fed up~

Selamat Hari Raya.

2010-09-10T21:07:00.011+08:00

Today is Muslim's new year, also a holiday for me and an oppurtunity for me to have an excuse to sleep late.... hahaha
Of course, my babe is with me in Kepong too.
We woke at 12noon, once stepped out of my room i smell something familiar with me. Is my daddy handmade nasi lemak, very nice. i'd took some pictures from it.

nice dishes from daddy

Then funny thing comes, i taught my dad Facebook. Doesnt it sounds funny, not only my dad, my mum too. It means they are computer noob. LOL. sorry to say that. haha.
After giving them some lessons we went to Midvalley for shopping. With babe too of course! hehe.
I bought a Roxy bag for my Honey jowel as her 21 birthday's present, is not cheap, about rm170!!! haha.... err.... i guess it's not cheap for me as a POOR student.... but she is my good friend so just freak out. haha. (before Roxy, i did plan to buy a Lollipop bag for her....it is more costly..... so just give up, sorry honey, i will get u one when i work, k ^^)

Jowel's 21 birthday present :Roxy Rockz!!! rm169.90 T_T

Then having Domino with family, after that sent my babe to KTM station.... she is going back to Ipoh!! Sob Sob... =(
At last we on the way back to Kepong, in the middle way we took our dinner in Jinjang.
Today is quite fun. Just..... broke after spent. =(
Money comes to me fasterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr..... yeah!
By the way, SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL OF UUUU... cheerrrrrrrrrrssss~

p/s: finally i get to eat my PASSION fruit!!! rm5.50 for 6 pieces. fresh and juicy!!! hehe!

very nice! addicted to it! wanna get more and more!!!!

Paid.

2010-09-06T23:13:00.003+08:00

Paid. RM100 gone. In just a minute.

they gain RM1,000 in just a minute.

i saw lots of people queue up just to pay bulk of summons......

aiks....

luckily babe helped me pay half.... =(

really sad.

SUMMONSSSSS....

2010-09-05T20:42:00.007+08:00

yeah~ guess what!!! i get a summons due to illegal parking last month!!! WTF!!!

although the photo that has taken not that clear but it's really a SUMMONS! under my name =*

RM100..... yerrr...... beh song!!!!

gotta be careful next time, i knew their big day is coming, that's why they are hardworking now, in order to GET MORE MONEY FOR THE BIG DAY!!!

last few days i was supposed to post some images of my homemade dishes... but quite lazy at that moment.

Here they are:

These food are the after made, hehe~~~ is it looks great? my dad thought we bought it from outside, soup+lapchiong rice+ vege fried egg...

Process...

My roommate+my babe was busying cutting the ingredients..... hahaha

病从口入，祸从口出。

2010-09-02T01:25:00.002+08:00

病从口入，祸从口出。

人的一生，有一大部分都在得罪人，而且还得意忘形的说“有吗？”

对，有时他们就是那么的“天真”，“无知”，或许详细一点就会是“惹人厌”。

“惹人厌”也许就是那么一回事。

Hebe 寂寞寂寞就好。

2010-08-26T23:53:00.009+08:00

最近爱上了一首歌，足以让我感到再次的伤感。

田馥甄主唱。

还是原来那个我
不过撂掉几公升泪所以变瘦
对着镜子我承诺
迟早我会换这张脸应对笑容
不算什么爱错就爱错
早点认错早一点解脱
我寂寞寂寞就好
这时候谁都别来安慰拥抱
就让我一个人去痛到
受不了伤到快疯掉
死不了就还好
我寂寞寂寞就好
你真的不用来我回忆里微笑
我就不相信我会笨到
忘不了赖着不放掉
人本来就寂寞的
借来的都该还掉
我总会把你戒掉

还是原来那个你
是我自己做梦你又改变什么
再多的爱也没用
每个人有每个人的业障因果
会有什么什么都没有
早点看破才看的见以后
我寂寞寂寞就好
这时候谁都别来安慰拥抱
就让我一个人去痛到
受不了伤到快疯掉
死不了就还好
我寂寞寂寞就好
你真的不用来我回忆里微笑
我就不相信我会笨到
忘不了赖着不放掉
人本来就寂寞的
我总会把你戒掉

before the day ends.... or it just end and start another day.... recalled back what i did today...

i sent my car to car center to wash up.
Guess what, rm118 = car wash, vacuum and cleans carpet..... OMG!! holly expensive!
fed up and gone back. AND NO MORE VISIT TO THAT SHOP AGAIN!!!

p/s: Today whole day eat at home with my homemade dishes, it is simple and taste good. Next time i will take down the pictures and share to u guys =) hehe.

ANTS and their EGGS...

2010-08-26T10:28:00.003+08:00

yesterday i got class at 10.35am, babe and i prepared everything and went to the school.

After school we went to eat then to supermarket "The Store" to buy some necessaries thingy.

after everything done we back home, after we stopped the car we gets everything down from the car, i saw them.... ANTS.... massive of ANTS!! and they are carrying their EGGS!!! GOSHHHH....... i had never saw a HUGE amount of them in my car or somewhere....!!! i shouted and throw everything at the car park there under a big hot sun!!

ISh!!!!! where does them came from??? i question mark myself. =(

luckily babe there and helped me out. she went to get a "Sheftox" and sprayed on them.

Just a minute, there are in corpse!! woohooooooooooooooooo..... (err.... just felt sorry to them.)

i have no choice but gotta kill them to save my car, im selfish.

but i guess most of us will do the same thing right? imagine there is a HUGE amount of ants and their EGGSSSS.... it is in white oral shape!!! URGHHHH... how disgusting, even now recalled back also panic.

as u can see.... how disgusting it is.....!!! eventhough that's not the actual image but it is almost the same!!! ( sorry, i din capture the picture on the spot, coz i was too nervous!! )

After my car happens this incident, i decided to send my car to have a body clean up today!!!

money gone again =(

p.s. : i was about to recover my flu, fever and sore throat. But today morning it has back to me. =( i guess yesterday i ate Nasi Lemak, then it comes to me again..... (yelling~~~~!!!)

Sick but recover soon...

2010-08-24T21:18:00.003+08:00

Today once i woke up i felt so dizzy and i couldnt make a stable walk =( Luckily my class has canceled, so i can sleep another 2 hours.

After all i went back Kepong to do some sign up for my private thingy then having lunch with my babe at Kepong too. we ate Lui Cha ^^

somehow, it doesnt looked great and taste great for me, just common. I will prefer Serdang one... hehe. After having a half portion of it, my head gets dizzy again, i guess im gonna stop consuming it and i recalled back what my mum told me last time, Lui Cha is "HOT", in chinese means it contains HOT ingredients that will make u feel hot, just like having fried things. I did not finish it.

after paying the bill i went to get my MC, cause im not gonna attend for my 2nd class since i got a bad dizzy head. Somemore the clinic that i visited is just next few doors to me. I go and have a MC then i went back to sleep. Left babe attend class alone, felt sorry to her =(

After taken mt medicine, i slept, for 3 hours. Luckily it gets better. I guess im gonna recover soon. hehe.....

so now im just waiting my babe to pack my dinner for me, wonder why it takes so much time huh????

during e one net workshop

2010-08-23T10:05:00.007+08:00

My blog workshop today.

today is my last day for the seminar, and so coincidence!!! Was being asked to create a OWN blog!! i was DONE 3 years ago.... LOLOLOL....

So just edit some and design some of my blog's layout. HEHE.
overall this seminar not bad. Everything just going well, but it is a bit rush for me... cause study 3 day onwards non stop and it is 12hours non stop!! is a WHOLE day seminar. Everytime back to home i will get exhausted. Like a zombie.
Thanks to my sexybabe helped me massage on my back. haha. really thanks to her.

Actually im still in the class... LOL
=)

these are my photos that been taken during the class.

cycled by yellow thingy is my mum ^^

ya, as u can see.... attending E One Net workshop~~~

anyways, i felt sick today, dizzy head after having my lunch at old town, bangsar.

HOWEVER, i still have to continue my classes even though im in sick (god knows will i be concentrated in listening to the lecturer...)

In the end of the class, we've been assigned to present ourself.... which mean introducing ourself. haha. it is quite fun for me, cause i got to know everyone and also they do know me. =)

(i told them that im a website designer.... ) hahahaha....

The class is going to end, and i gotta decide whether back to sri petaling or kepong.... i guess sri petaling would be my final choice.

Oh hell ya~ protect me from dirty thingy..... amitoufoooo~

The L Word

2010-08-21T17:09:00.005+08:00

Just caught this DVD damn nice. Go and have a look =)
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=( just felt so ganasai.

2010-08-20T23:04:00.003+08:00

once decided, once everything being sets. once u thought that will be..... then suddenly being changed. Urgh!!! what u will feel???????

this is what i felt now. damn irritating.
tomorrow im gonna attend a seminar, or so called a workshop of Internet marketing with my mum. My dad asked me to brainstorming, thinking some ideas for what to sell in the net. what to sell????? just got nothing flash in my mind. =(

tomorrow, gotta wake at 7am, 8.30am class starts, 9pm class end. obviously is a whole day class. tired....... =(
and it goes 2 day onwards.... aiks.... what a pity for me. But it cost above 10k for the workshop. So i got a MUST mission for my dad. =(

arrhhhhh...... pray for me =)

Last day of July; bad luck still with me.

2010-07-31T12:58:00.004+08:00

Today early morning, suppose to wake early to attend Moral class. But however, my alarm doesnt wake me up, i thought i had set my alarm yesterday but not!!! so i rushed everything up and prepare to get my car to school.
Unfortunately i cant find my car key, called my mum and she told she had driven off, asking me to take camry. OK, fine, coz im in a rush.

Once i start the car, i reverse.

"PONNNG.....!!!!" Guess what.....
i bang a car, is Waja.
Waja bengkak already, i sweat, why so lousy. I faster opened my door and look for my camry. There are many scratches ==" my dad will definitely shout on me.

Luckily there is no driver in Waja, i drove my car park to somewhere around the Waja, coz i was too nervous until clueness to do in the next. I stopped at somewhere and think how how how...
Then, i saw the owner of camry is taking their car off. I dunno whether they did noticed there is "bengkak" on the door of waja. i just prayed they did not notice!!!!

I still have not tell my dad, i guess later i will do.

God bless me.....
The end july, still kena this kind of thingy, i really speechless....

JULY - worst month for me.

2010-07-30T22:06:00.003+08:00

I am just a very normal person having a very normal moment in everyday.

But why should i suffered like this in this July???

My dad sick....

Loan delays....

Result dropped into 2nd class.......

My dad is not in good condition, he cant walk in fast speed, cannot carry weighted thing, keep on feeling dizzy, cant breath smooth... many and many....

With all these signs made me feel so worry and frustrated. i could do anything for him.

It is going to start my level 3, suppose to get my loan on August, so i can pay my bankdraft for my school fee and etc. But guess what? Just got the info from the administration, telling us that 1 year only will release 2 times of payment. WTF??? which mean i gotta wait until October only i can get my freaking money, 4th payment will be coming year April, last payment will be coming year October... and that time i am gradated. What for i get the money??? Wondering how their system goes? is it that worse? so called a Advance school? an IT academic? OMG!!! how can it be? i was being lied by this freaking Uni!

OK, fine, maybe because of the government problem. FINE. i will go and get some part time job.

Just two days passed by, i claimed down. Open my lappie and check some updates on my result.

GUESS WHAT AGAIN????

My grade dropped!!

last 3 weeks, result was released. Being showed that two 1st class, two 2nd class, i was so happy, because my result had improved alot. after 1 week, result was under pending??? WTF, play us a fool? OK, fine, i will be waited and see what will it be. I guess wont be too much different.

OK, 2 weeks passed. Open up the webspace and login.

This time i am really screwed up this fucking APIIT. From grade 15 falls to 12!!! dropped 3 grades!!!! I am so freaking disappointed. If my result really that shit why dont just show the actual result from the beginning?

whatever... i am HOPELESS.

HOPELESSSSSSSSSSSSSSS........

This month really is a WORST month for me in this year.... by they way... =(

yelling for money!!!

2010-07-27T15:31:00.003+08:00

Just found that people around me are all craving for money.
For the usage of owning a branded bag, better dine-in.... etc.

So am I.
But I plan not to overspend. Save the money for my future usage~! yeah!

lori 被偷了。

2010-07-25T13:52:00.003+08:00

是因为我爸前阵子太幸运，所以这下子得让他体会一些不运吗？

心脏不好，已经是他最难受的体会。

这回，又得让他尝试罗里被偷的心疼吗？

他心脏已经是不好了，难道又得让他感受闷闷的心疼吗？

今天，我睡的很迟。

踏出房门的第一步，传来香香的早餐味。

去到了厨房，看到我爸在准备早餐给我们。当时，我还不知道罗里的事。

过后，我妈说要到警察局走一趟，我还想说是不是说错了，应该是医院吧。

后来我姐才一一告诉我。

这时，我心情真的很复杂。

很没心情。

为什么会这样。

我真的很怕，再次失去的感觉不想再体会。

2010-07-24T23:19:00.004+08:00

害怕，害怕。

真的打从心里的害怕。

早前失去了，难道我还得体会再一次一样的心情吗？

或许如果真的发生，我也许真的彻底绝望了。

就连活下去的希望也消失不见。

她告诉我，如果他真的晕倒，送他进院。

如果手术是五十五十，他要回家。

如果真的发生什么事.... 那样的如果，我不想听。

我真的不想面对。

我要逃避。

我要把一切的不好如果都毁掉。

其实，我真的很害怕。

害怕失去双亲，失去生命的支柱。

如果真的失去，或许我的人生也跟着毁了。

好想哭。

我真的好害怕这样的结局。

Money Insufficient....

2010-07-13T14:41:00.002+08:00

How i wish there will be RM1million with me every year. One million in a year. So that i do not have to worry about lacking of money. But that's a miracle. I should not think too much unless i really put bunch of effort in earning money. Hell ya, im a lazy bug. Getting a job and work happily is the hardest part for me. I do not like working, especially under people, i do not like to being force, do not like to being nag.... blah blah blah, but who else will like?

School is going start, it is time for me to prepare and proceed to level 3!!!! urghhh.... nervous.
and also the FEE!!!!!! god damn it so damn expensive la...... WTF!!
where can get the money to PAY!!! since my loan haven come yet!!! god bless it faster comes to me la...
2 more days gotta travel to Singapore with friends, another rm800 fly away, maybe more than that.... gosh.... only for trips... rm3K already fly away........ =(
>.<
i am really a BIG money spender!!!!
but hopefully i can afford!!!!
daddy~~~~

heartbeat.

2010-07-10T23:56:00.002+08:00

aiks. it has been quite a while i din hear my heartbeat.

even for now im still hesitate isn't it came across from somewhere in my part of body.

seriously, im quite confusing for my current situation. i dunno how does it feels. is it happy? is it sad, or is it making me worry?

im trying not to step deeper. and i also dunno whether im in the depth or what? i am just so worried. of course, i keep pursuing myself this is just a normally thingy. treating different way to different person. i am believe everyone is doing what i said. but the way i did, is it too special to "someone"? only my heart will know. but im not dare to ask. and avoiding something that i know will it will hurts when i know the truth.

i am try to make it common as everyones will do.

but sometimes it is very hard to accept. the way you talk to me, the way you threaten me, to me is just so special, we re not that kind of relationship. but we just did what they did. haha. why? is it weird? i dun wanna talk more. just wanna keep in heart and think wisely.

and keep listen to my heartbeat. is it increasing or just like normal...

开心和幸福

2010-07-03T01:15:00.005+08:00

这期的考试成绩还不赖，进步了少许。

感谢我的队友们，froggie，wilson, 和红宝贝!

感谢你们以来的支持和鼓励！当然还有我的老婆们和死党们！

最近的生活还蛮平凡的，没有什么起伏。

但是，我可一直旅行哦！

也该宣布破费了！

去了普及岛回来又去马六甲，新加坡等！

但是，真的很开心。

很开心和我的老婆宝贝们一起游玩。

只是，分离的心情是那么的舍不得。

分割的一段时期，真的有点难熬，但是只能尽量习惯没有你们的存在。

因为，你们可不能一直陪伴着我吧。

一直那么觉得。

尤其是你。哈哈！

习惯，真的让人觉得毛骨悚然。

也许是真的习惯，有时还会怀疑是否产生了错觉？

但是，爱着你们当然是一定的啦！

老婆们，我爱你。

献给我的老婆们~

大令姑姑(weiting)，蜜糖老婆(jowel)，性感宝贝(shoong)，甜心婶婶(flo)，dear燕燕(chuiyan)。

幸福时刻，从认识你们开始。

Thoughts.

2010-06-13T17:10:00.005+08:00

突然很感谢我老豆给于我一个那么好的环境下长大。

赐予我一个温暖的保护膜，不受外面干扰。

让我根本不知道还有真正“痛苦”的存在。

看到身边的她，我真的觉得我对于“烦恼，和痛苦”都一无所知。

她真的很厉害，能够独自克服。

在我有生以来，第一个让我自豪的朋友。

因为她的存在，让我觉得我是很幸福，但同时也让我感受到幸福是可以那么无影无踪的。

它可以一瞬间而来，一扫而去。

幸福；既可以让人成长，也可以让如陷入崩溃。

看到她那么的烦恼，其实心里真的啾了一下。

祝福她，支持她，是我所能。

加油！球仔以及dingdong~

冲啊！！！！！

2010-05-31T02:42:00.004+08:00

真的真的好久没有放松自己了。上个星期以前，每天都活得死鸡般的！

利用两天的时间，把自己给阔出去！

动漫，吃饭，动漫，睡觉。

太棒了啦！！！！

当然，懒散的时间也不能太久，免得脑袋装大便。

明天的星期一，又要干活了！囧~~~~

好不想干哦~~我要逛街，买衣服，买鞋子，买个不停！

我还要吃 Tenji, Jogoya, Shabu-Shabu, Steak, 还有很多很多！

这种无忧无虑的生活，我真的不想离开啊~~~~*幸福*

但好歹自己也是个有脑的人，处在于无忧无虑的生活，脑袋会变豆腐！

明天，加油！

当然！这假期也是有目标的！就是~ 就是~就是~~~啊哈哈哈哈哈~~

3KGGGGGGGGGGGGGG！！！

两个星期去除三公斤！！很难！是极难啦！！！！

好不容易假期可以吃个够的说！

可是又要去Phuket游玩！

对！一定要！哈哈哈哈哈~~~

加油啊~~~~~~~~~~~~

天助我也~~~~~哈哈哈哈哈！！！！！！

思念着。

2010-05-29T04:05:00.004+08:00

就是不断地思念着某个人。

不断的，

不停的，

思念着。

自然的，

就是出现在脑海中。

是幸福？还是悲哀？

感谢；你们以来的陪伴。

2010-05-28T03:16:00.007+08:00

有似是空，空似是有。

渐渐感受那一份气息，慢慢习惯那一种存在，开始发觉那已无法自拔。仿佛把自己融入在一种弥漫的空气，在束缚中飘浮。
一旦失去了束约，似乎浑身都不自然。
被空出来的空洞，感觉如此的忐忑不安。

不肯定，不确定；使得失去平衡。
陷入一种崩溃的山腰；停留在澎湃的海浪，飘浮不定。
原来，就是那种感觉。

被不肯定的答案所束缚；疑问。
退步；把一切想得就是如此。
一切视为所谓的“习惯成自然”。
在于控制之下，让一所高厚的钢墙锁住于外。
以便不再陷入迷惘当中混乱平复的心灵。

以便再次于胡思乱想。

... ... ... ... ... ... ...

很快的，终于考完试，向大学二级说再见。错，不再见！
两个月的假期，似乎有点长，长得让人有点往入懒散的方向。
宣布成绩的日子，就在七月尾声。
但是心血来潮的我，真的好想能尽快知道。
退步？进步？

但是唯一值得开心的事，
UCSD's assignment 竟然得到A！真的吓了一跳！
我还似乎记得当时老师的评论是：you guys still need a lot of understanding for overall assignment. U guys have been left out a lot of important parts. Your diagram is wrong, the process is not showing the process..... blah blah blah 之类等。
没想到会拿到A！
真的很谢谢我的伙伴们！
wilson, zijian, hoong..... love u all so much for being my assignment group mate!! muackz!
特别感谢红姐！没有你的无形压力，我可能还在飘浮当中。
感谢子建，一直给我无限的鼓励和支持。
感谢wilson，一直逗我们笑，让我们在压力之下得到一些舒解。
万分的感谢。
当然，最后还要谢谢自己的坚定和努力。
哈哈！

项链段了，但信念依然存在。

2010-05-18T01:36:00.002+08:00

冲凉时，不小心把妈咪特地弄给我的项链给弄断了。

好想哭，明天又是考试的第一天。

是预兆吗？

能怎样？

但是我还是相信，你我之间的信念还在。

妈咪，你会一直在身边守护着我。

相信明天和往后一定会顺利。

考试算什么？我一定行！！！

妈咪，我爱你。

有时，真的很想为你而哭。

但是哭了又能怎样？

事实依然不变。

好傻。

哈哈。

明天，考试加油咯！

=)

2010-04-28T22:47:00.001+08:00

haha, why footstop??

很快的，转眼间就即将来到assignment due date 的那一天，还有两天的时间。

我想，应该还来得及吧！

前几天，因为家里的一些因素，而把自己搞得忐忑不定。

写了信息给Babe，她说回到去会给个惊喜我，但我更本没把它当一回事。

因为上次的惊喜是空的。（车钥匙不小心掉在地上，她只是把它捡上来然后趁我还没发现它的不见给我个惊喜。这就是惊喜？？？鸦雀无声！）

当回到去，进了房间，看到在枕头上“王菲精选集”？？不是吧？假装不知道。

也许不是送给我的。。。

怎知真的是我的！！哈哈！谢啦，babe... muackz...

记得上几个星期她问过我到底喜欢五月天，S.H.E，还是王菲多点，我还以为她只是问爽呢！

无论如何，谢谢你啦！

我还真的蛮喜欢王菲的！！

复杂。

2010-04-14T21:24:00.002+08:00

很久都没有探望自己的心境了。

最近都发生很多不一样的事，伤痕累累，但却很充实。

只是这几天，都觉得自己好累。

累得我好想大哭，累得好想消失。

某些事情发生的太突然，也太不真实。

害怕得让自己都不如自己。

那是一种怎样的感觉？

复杂，只能这样形容。

逃避的方式太显眼，有时反而却身不由己。

时时把自己搞到精神错乱。

还好还有你们（flo,gu) ，安静倾听让我不再想的那么复杂。

真希望那只是一场错觉。

Assignments drive me crazy.

2010-03-31T23:03:00.002+08:00

yes, again. ASSIGNMENT AGAIN.

hurry up and finish it in second! yeah!

exam is coming soon, yes! good luck to myself.

加油加油！快点毕业！

2010-03-19T14:46:00.003+08:00

很快的，已经踏入大学二年级的第二学期。

上一学期的成绩不大理想，也许是不够努力吧！

今年再次加油。

当然，最近还蛮烦恼的，因为赶着几份报告。

可是相当的难！

毕竟我对这科的料还不够秤！

但没关系！加油！

钱~~~啊~~~~

还是那句，钱不够用！

人类啊~~~

为什么你还不知足呢？

S.H.E 爱而唯一

2010-03-07T01:34:00.005+08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....
终于看了S.H.E 演唱会！
不错！蛮好看的！！　
她们都漂亮的很！！！　
这不重要，好戏在后。
看完了演唱会，竟然找不到车，绕了整半个体育场。
那些路人都笑了。
驾着车恰好要走出体育馆，我们竟然发起疯来。
在车内乱喊～～～路人个个都望过来！
但是，我们不理！照放肆～～路人们，啊～～～～～～～
真的很疯～因为，对面路都听到！个个都以为我们都在喊S.H.E，哈哈！
还好没有警察！

camera camera =)

2010-03-06T14:53:00.002+08:00

最近买了一架相机，终于买到了！！
享受着呢！！

这个虎年banyak sui....sui 在有出没进。

2010-03-05T18:17:00.004+08:00

yes, im money wasted also money fasten spender....

why say so? coz i spend many on UN necessary products and thingies... aiks...

ONLY in a month, i can spent more than 3k.... WAO... bravo.

that's why, i gotta control my own in spending so much.

P1....

streamyx.....

telephone bill....

rental....

food...

facial....

petrol....

rubbish.....

oh......no.....

Florence 说得对！这个虎年banyak SUIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII.....

我的财运啊~~~~请你快点降临我身上啊！！！！！！！！！！！

文昌帝君，庇佑我呀~~~

2010-02-27T21:32:00.002+08:00

太棒了! yeah!

终于的，恶魔离开我而去了啦！

虽然并不知道到底，究竟会不会及格，但是，这一阵子就再也不必要去碰它了！

在和它的对仗中，我真的好害怕，问题纸中的问题，真的弄得我不知所措。

每一个的答案都非答案，而每一个非答案，都似如答案。天啊~~~~

算了，都过去了。

总而言自，过去就让它过去吧！

希望可以顺利及格！

求了文昌帝君，希望得到他的庇佑！

加油！

WTF!!! Malaysia studies AGAIN?? HOLY SHIT...zzZZ

2010-02-25T01:26:00.003+08:00

niaaarbehhhh....

this is really really shit!!! im facing a HUGE problem again!!

my SUPER HUGE enemy has came back to me... why why why... why dont u just leave me alone??

yes, it has been 8 yrs passed that u've followed me, u love me until never leave me go, we broke up and swear that never meet each other anymore but u BROKE THE PROMISE..... =(

WHY?

why are u treating me so damn cruel.... =(

im phobia of u.... i thought after my diploma i wont meet u anymore, but now i've transfered to APIIT with my several hopes and happiness.... then u suddenly pop up and telling me u will come back to me and stick with me again.... argh....

my nightmare has begin.... and do not know when it will STOP.... =(

Malaysia studies... or what we usually called it LAN subject in Uni or in College...

i wonder why Tarc college's LAN subject not yet been recognize by government since the college is private and government combination school... why why why.... WHY??? oh ya... MCA haven make any announcement on this case... they will just hiding in a hole and avoiding the question mark...aiks.....

SO... IN CONCLUSION....IN THE RESULT... IN THE END....

i had to RETAKE this ganasai subject again!! YER..... beh tahan!! si beh BEH SONG!!!

aiks...

somemore now we must do it in english version... more sei....

whatever... face the war again...

BEAT IT....

p/s: chuah had broken my hair clip =( ganasai her... lol

welcome back my bad habit =)

2010-02-20T18:30:00.002+08:00

wooohooo.....

my bad habit came back to me!!

每天的睡眠时间是...... 半夜五点，五点半，六点，六点半，七点？？天啊~~~

对对对！！就是早上睡觉，下午起身。

天啊~~~怎么又来了呢？

都怪自己不好，一直玩到夜夜才回来，再不就上网到夜夜。

可是奇怪，下午才起身的我，竟然没被爸爸骂??? 啊？不但如此，还煮东西给我吃，还捧着碗来？天啊~~~~太奇怪了。

对，奇怪，因为他的表情是恐怖的。

我好怕~~别吓我啦！！！！

天气这么炎热，竟然也无端端下起了一场大雨。

添了不少凉风。

这几天都玩得很开心，但是也有不开心的事情发生。

我又放飞机了，对一位朋友。

惹了她生气，更对不起的是令她失望了。

真的很对不起。

新年快乐-虎年

2010-02-18T04:55:00.002+08:00

真的超级快呀！！！
就这样，又一年了！！有没有搞错啊！！！
我还记得上一年的新年是怎样度过的叻！

可是，今年的新年不是怎么的热闹。
红包也少了不少。

唯一不变的是，天气还是那么的热！

今年的新年比较特别，因为是和情人节一起度过的。
当然，今年的情人节是一个人度过的。
啊~还好我还有朋友们！
哈哈！！！

不知不觉，我也二十一了！！！
真的很瞬间。
快到我都忘了我老了。
很谢谢朋友们帮我庆祝。
当然，最开心的还是因为有你们的陪伴。
你们可是我的光荣呢！

很抱歉，有时我会放你们飞机。
很抱歉，有时我的愚蠢动作会让你们哭笑不得，气到半死。
很抱歉，有时我的话里没经过大脑而惹你们翻白眼。

但是，我是无意的~~~我还是我爱着你们的！！

最近都发神经，不到早上是不睡的。
糟糕糟糕。
晚安咯！

wakao.. si beh luarrrrr....

2010-02-14T19:10:00.001+08:00

omg!! 35'c and above everyday, this is the M'sia recently weather.... so freaking HOT.
even though turned on the air-cond also cant feel any coolest!! arghhhh... it's killing me off!!
yup =_= chinese new year is HERE.... get the angpao!!! wooohooooooooo.................

beside getting angpao i also ate alots in these days. sure gain WEIGHTSSSSS....
shhhh..... haha.

从开始到现在。

2010-02-12T02:51:00.003+08:00

有个女孩。

其实不是有个女孩，
而是两个女孩。
一个出现在之前，
一个出现在之后。
姑且，我们叫她之前，也叫她之后。
而她在之前与之后之间，
姑且，
我们叫她永远。

miss my mum.

2010-02-07T04:08:00.004+08:00

i felt so depressed for these recent days.
please do not mention about it in front of me. im afraid my tears could not stop falling...
how stupid am i =(

i miss my mum so much.
it has been 11 years passed...
but i still miss u so much.
sorry for disappointing u...
im not good enough.
but im still try my best for u my dearest.
i miss u so much. real much.
for my dearest mum who always stay in my heart =)
love u.

迷惘。

2010-02-06T01:51:00.004+08:00

二十一岁了。
好快。

其实，也没什么分别。
还是一样为生活而作出一份努力。
一样是读书。

有好几次都好想放弃。
但是为了达到您的需求，为了使您开心，也为了自己，而继续踏上读书的脚步。
没什么，只是不是我有兴趣的去向。
算了吧。
也没差。

很谢谢朋友们的祝福和礼物。
但是，对我而言，最大的礼物就是你们的陪伴和支持。

生日的那一天，我不是很想出门，也不知道为什么。
就是想一个人静一静。

我也许会奇怪，但也不是我想要的。
很多次都是过后才发觉自己的怪癖。
也不知道为什么。

很多的不知道还在思想着，但始终摸不着为什么。
继续迷惘着。

心情烦躁。

2010-01-29T19:34:00.003+08:00

低落的心情又回来。
回到家了，还是一样。
累。

晚上虽然跟朋友们提前庆生，但是不知怎么了，还是提不起劲。
很没有心情。
看了成绩，依然还是很烂。
算了，不是读书的料怎么背怎么吭，还是一塌糊涂。

突然一大堆事情迎面而来，我真的好像哭啊！！！
假装，真的很辛苦。
我好想就真的这样说：我不干了。

FUCK OFF....

2010-01-25T19:12:00.003+08:00

P1..... u fucking liar, and fucking stuff that makes me kena lao beh shoot!!! damn it!!!

wtf.... suddenly felt so upset and screwed up. i dun wanna talk to them, they're freaking annoying me to me now. they never know my feeling. The line isnt good also not my fault, that day i was testing the line, and the signal was good. i never thought that will become worst today. you thought am i a god?? a prediction god for the future?? how i know the line will become worst?? why dun u just think of me, why just straight away jump to the conclusion. damn you!!! you made me feel like it is better that i dun back home. im sick of it!!! EXTREMELY SICK OF IT!

the HOME makes me feel like so annoying when stepped into the HOUSE!

what is the HOME means to me now??? ANNOYING AND TROUBLESOME! add on... lack of sharing and caring!!!! these are what u guyz made me feel like. im so sad to having this kinda thoughts. but i cant stopped of thinking in that way.

sometimes i would just try to make myself feel like "just let it be". what i can do, what can i say since u guyz never listen to what am i going to say. u guys just wanna quickly express what u guyz wanna do. never put on a break for me. is that call selfish?

recently really having lots of stuffs that makes me mad.

I AM SO MOODY AND FREAKING ANGRY.

bastard.

i feel like not going back in this week. but must to. cause of the parties..... AIKS.

what the fuck!

2010-01-24T21:37:00.002+08:00

what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck....

i cant stop complaining about this fucking broadband, it is even worse than maxis broadband!! OMG!!! it's really screwing me up like hell!

i was sign up this fucking line since last 2 weeks before, when im still having the trial version the line is good. but then after having the trial the line is FREAKING LAG!!! OMG!!! i cant even connect...... although im under the coverage area! that makes me freak like hell!!

so on, another fucking assy freak me up!

ya, the one i hate gets XX, and im gonna be her XX!! shittttttttt......

this kind of feeling really GANASAI loooo..... few days cant sleep well cause of this shitty assy stuff!! ARGHHHHHH.... how come how come how come..... OMGGGGGG....

aiks.... luckily i have moved. seldom see XX assy face. lol. im bad. but that's me.... wuakakakak...

chill~~~

买买买，买个不停。

2010-01-08T00:00:00.000+08:00

新年到，新年好，新年乐逍遥。

是的！一年一度的农历新年即将来临，大街小巷都装饰得红档档，各位档位都播着新年歌，每个人都忙着购物！气氛相当兴奋。当然说到购物我也不例外！难的假期，难得轻松，当然少不了购物啊！我可是闻名相当高的购物女王耶！虽说钱包受了不少苦，但还是逃避不了购物的欲望。“囧”

不知不觉，发现手上的购物袋越来越多，越来越重，钱包的钞票越来越薄，也发现到连吃也不够来付。糟糕，又得再按钱。也还好，因为晓得银行真的剩下不了多少，只好压抑着购物的欲望！尽量少出！

一个月的假期，除了做工，就是逛街，再不是就通街吃喝。天呀~真的很享受的说。
今天，又再次和燕去逛逛，吃喝。也好巧，我们的穿着竟然大同小异，而且最好笑是，连发束都是一样的，只是我的颜色比较浅，但款式都一样！天呀！真的太有默契了！！不只是这一次，几乎每一次出来都差不多，突然觉得好窝心啊~。去了Ikea, The curve 看看，虽然并不是要搬家，但却不晓得为什么就是爱逛那里，然后幻想自己以后的家该怎么摆设。有说有笑，也发觉自己好像随着年龄，思想也变得不一样了，哈哈。在那里，也买了我最喜爱的被单和被单盖套。真的吃了我不少钱啊~这两样东西都花了我rm140。但是，我不后悔。在那之前，更本没有想到什么理由去买，因为家里的被单是足够的。现在，因为学校的关系，得搬到学校附近，成了一个买被单的借口。可笑吧！

也在那里吃了一些好料，当然价钱也不便宜。我们俩就说，今天真的最后一天了，就大喝大吃一天，但是却没有想到这个拜六还得花上一笔钱来为一位好友庆生。炸到~~~

其实也还好，因为这假期中都有为老豆打工，虽然工钱都付在手机上，但是还有几百块收。好让我不至于到破产的地步，加上假期后都没有机会逛街了。当然得把握机会呀！

很快的，又要老一岁了，虽然真的不想它的来临，但是既然来了就勇于接受吧！哈哈。

谢谢。

2010-01-02T01:44:00.002+08:00

新年到了，当然也收到不少礼物。

谢谢。

爸爸，谢谢你。

你是我生命中最重要的柱子。

扶持我，支持我和带领我，我不敢想象未来没有你的日子。

日子越是过得快，我越是害怕自己一个人。

我知道一定会有一天，我们彼此将会分离。

我知道我得学会坚强。

虽然妈咪已离我们而去，但我们还是相依为命的过下去。

我知道我的任性和愚蠢偶尔会令到你火冒三丈，但是你知道我不是有意的。

我也知道你因为我太随性而要我断绝一点，我也知道外面有太多太多对我不利的事，也知道有时处于好心也得不到该有的回报。

当然我也更加知道你要我强悍一点，分辨自己的能力范围。

但很抱歉，暂时办不到。

因为我自己也有自己与人相处的方式；或许你对人家好，人家并不代表也要对你好。

但是，我知道要是你对人家不好，人家肯定不会对你好。

我不想要活在你挣我夺的世界里，至少我世界里不允许。

虽然比较是必定会发生在生活当中，但我尽可能放下。

要比，就和自己比。

无论如何，谢谢你一直以来的呵护。

爸爸，我爱你。

谢谢你的礼物。

友情。你明白它的定义吗？

2010-01-02T01:22:00.005+08:00

多朋友不一定幸福，而是因为交际好。
少朋友不一定不幸福，如果能有一位信任你、扶持你、开导你、带领你、帮助你的朋友，就等于胜过一切了。

多朋友不代表跟每一个人都有较深的交情。
身边的某些人都羡慕我有许多朋友，一直被约之类的。
对，我是挺多朋友的，个个都称得上蛮健谈的朋友。
可以归为好朋友吗？知己吗？姐妹吗？

其实我觉得不必刻意去分类，不必去在意。
因为每个朋友的定义、地位和身份都有所不同，每一位都有我自己跟他们每一个的相处方式。什么好朋友，好知己，好姐妹，好兄弟之类；只是一种称呼，一种方式。
对于我来说，相处得来，就是好朋友，好知己。

兄弟，姐妹，好朋友，只是表面上的称呼；不代表什么，也许是用来安慰人的一句称呼。

有些人说，好知己就是在你伤心绝望时，聆听你的世界，开导你的心房，让你踏出一片天空。而好朋友呢，便可以称为“姐妹”或是“兄弟”，在你有难时助你一把。
是有这种说法的吧？

那么有些交情不深，也没什么聊上几句话，但在你需要帮助时却毫不保留的帮助你；那称为什么？
说着，有些交流不错，有说有笑，但当你需要他双手时，他却临时退场。曾经何时，有几分如此，因为怕麻烦而止住了步伐，不和太多人有深入的交情，就是因为怕不必要的麻烦。虽然如此，我也因为可以用自己的双手来扶持自己；不去麻烦人家，人家也没必要来麻烦我。但是却有时会暗想，在我的心目中，他们对我来说的定义是什么？就有如表面上的朋友般吗？那我在他们的心目中又会是个扮演怎么样的角色呢？
因此的原因，让我对朋友之情的重视加深了一些。

当然，也因为这样，我了解什么是真友情和假友情。
同时，怎样的友情是长久永恒，怎样友情的是瞬间短暂。

有些因为交情不是很深，嘻嘻哈哈和他们渡过了漫长的岁月；有些则是互相了解、谈心、偶尔说笑，互相维持下渡过了岁月；这种友谊，难被遗忘。
所谓短暂一旦相识（或许在学校，办公室，或是公众场合），过了一段时期，分离了，便不再联络彼此（毕业，转笑，辞职）。有时在那段日子，大家都对彼此的熟悉都有不错的了解，但一旦分离了，感情淡了，久而久之谈谈把他人的存在感给遗忘了。

分离；既是害死人的场合，既是锻炼其人的回合。

一见如故。

只认识了一星期，只了解了百分之十，只知道他/她与我聊得来；而成为了不错的朋友，大家互相扶持。
短短的几个月，却相似几年般，好熟悉。
然而，有些认识了几年，却切入不进话题。
说的，来来去去都是一些表面上的话。
有时，还因为不明又得装明而压抑自己的情感。

曾经。

曾经有位朋友，因为不懂得表达自己，但却不想伤害他人的心而隐藏自己的内心，时时刻刻露出一脸无所谓，开心的笑容。就算自己的心灵被伤得片体鳞伤，但是却毫不出声。继续带着面具的形态；笑脸迎人。
然而，他也累了，伤痕累累的身心也承受不了他人的对待，慢慢的离开了他认为该属于他的朋友们。混入一群认识不久，但聊得来的朋友们。
后来，发觉他自己渐渐的融入他们的世界，同时也发觉他们也是渐渐踏入他世界。
因此，他活得比以前快乐，做回自己。当然，习惯是一时改变不了的。偶尔还会戴上面具迎面。可是这面具，是发自内心而戴上的；不想为他担心的朋友操心。
是心甘情愿的戴上。

不以为然，有时也会胡思乱想； 信任，背叛，原谅。

人生必经的三部曲。

深信。

你曾认真地相信一个人吗？
你曾因为太相信而伤害了自己吗？
相信，既是将自己信托给他人。
相信，既是一份给于自己的安全感。

背叛。

以为相信，就能胜过一切。
但有时换来的，只是一份背叛；跌入谷底。
越是坚信着，越是跌的重。
一旦换来背叛，深信；就将此结束。

怀疑。

因为太过于相信，不幸的，或许会碰墙；背叛。
因为曾被背叛过，自然的，或许不再勇敢的相信任何人；怀疑。
怀疑是什么？
相信，不相信。它就停留在中间。
不上不下的，对于自己，是最安全的保护。

虽然不想它们出现，但是有时还是无可避免的。

管它吧，做好自己。
朋友啊，你要加油啊！

人生毕竟是一种为自己而战的战争，有时候赢了不代表你就可以赢一世。输了也不代表你不会赢。许多波折将会出现在你人生中的某些角落。你的选择将会是后退或前进。有些既不能前进那就放弃，寻找更好的路口，不必为了一棵树而放弃整个森林。但千万不能一直放弃而忽略了一直等着你的一片天空，别当上一只自以为拥有一切井底蛙。

所谓一个真正的朋友，是一个可以令你躺开胸怀，在他们面前表现出自然的自己，即使彼此都不说话，也不会感到尴尬的气氛。

Another year is coming soon.

2009-12-30T02:27:00.002+08:00

很快的，一分一秒不断的跑。

离新的一年才那两天，好快！！！

可是，最近的我不晓得是不是出太多了，有点儿腻了，反而想呆在家多点。

但是...... 却还有约....是好事？还是坏事呢？哈哈。

对了，还得抽一天去探望外公外婆叻！整整半年多没见他们了，肯定被他们抹杀了！

新一年的愿望是什么呢？

我希望，

我认识的人都健健康康，

做每一件事都顺顺利利，

最重要的是每一天都活得开心，知足。

圣诞节，快乐？

2009-12-25T23:19:00.002+08:00

很快的，圣诞夜即将结束。

今年的圣诞夜没什么好玩。

也当然，依然懒得出去。

是人都晓得，吉隆玻的路永远都那么塞，何况是大日子。

这个星期，连续三天下吉隆玻，也白白浪费了我六小时在马路上塞塞塞！！

怕了。

一月就快降临了，要搬出去了。

找了房间，但还是未跟包租婆定租。

也还得等朋友的肯定。

有点儿麻烦。

哈哈，我果然是懒人。

明天又得出去了，钱包也越来越扁了，怎么办呢？

睡觉。

2009-12-21T22:28:00.000+08:00

睡觉。

人生中最重要的一份子。

但往往不被人们重视，更视为无所谓。

日渐而去，疾病慢慢降临。

那时刻；后悔，浮现在脑海。

睡眠，究竟是啥？

休息？

浪费时间？

解脱？

个人所决，个人所定。

不稳定的睡眠，到底是否造成障碍？

两天的两小时，一天的二十个小时。

可以吗？弥补到吗？

不。是不可以。

它也挺像吸毒般，只要那一次。

就很难解脱。

今天迟睡，明天迟睡，那就别指望后天会早睡。

今天两点，明天两点半，后天三点半…

慢慢的，渐渐的，越踩越深。

之后逐渐成习惯。

习惯成自然。

自然成病毒。

………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………

今天，很早就被叫起身了。

到了老豆的公司，真的很想在回到我的床窝，再次大睡。

但是，良心过意不去。

老豆也不可能就此放过我，只好继续呆在公司。

真的爆累的，昨天好不容易等到太阳还没露面就睡着，估计凌晨六点吧。

短短的三粒种，只能成为我的短眠；真的很短。

提不起劲。

很饿，但附近却没有半点食物。

很懒，是因为要自己驾车去打包。

等待，父母为我打包。

最后，个个忙着工作。

算了，吃着饼干顶着吧。

网站设计，真的很懒得动脑筋。

明晚应该过去慧文那里做吧。

哎~

很受不了啊！！！

假期啊~~ 我的假期啊~~

4.37am & 5.05am

2009-12-21T04:37:00.002+08:00

4.37am...

关上灯的没多久，又再次迎起灯来。

习惯了早晨的阳光伴我入眠。

心一烦，点上一口咽。

是过味烟。

奇怪了，怎么如此心烦。

想不透。

翻开了已久未碰相簿；回忆小时候。

没想到；我的生活与以前相比之下是如此的不同。

更加没有想到我会以这种方式去生活。

天上的母亲一定很愤怒吧。

很久都没有出现过这样空虚的心情。

也许之前的忙碌填满了我的空虚吧。

曾几何时，这一刻既是我甜梦的好时刻。

曾几何时，那时刻我是多么的简单无虑。

曾几何时，那一天我们笑着一起拥抱着。

曾几何时，我们手牵手一起快乐的活着。

曾几何时，你突然不知不觉离我们远去。

曾几何时，我的心竟然变得如此坚硬的。

曾几何时，我竟然学会说服自己不放弃。

曾几何时，我变得不是你期待的好孩子。

曾几何时，我又突然变得好奇怪好烦心。

曾几何时。

烟没吸完，已湮灭。

过味的烟，竟然是如此难闻。

好讨厌。

突然很想你，但却鼓不起勇气告诉你。

很想打电话告诉姐妹，但这时刻的他们已经在和周公约会。

听着你传给我的歌。

真的很好听，我好喜欢。

也很适合我现在的心情。

虽然有些我听不懂。

开来我得多学点国文咯。

明天答应爸爸帮他设计网站和顾店。

会很困吧。

睡觉去。

5.05am ...

拥抱。

2009-12-21T02:46:00.004+08:00

那是一种什么样的感觉。

心酸，既甜蜜。

算了，还是别想太多。

拥抱。

拥抱，既是温暖，既是心酸。

心酸又为何？因为你还没了解。

短短一分钟的拥抱，带来永远忘不了的甜蜜和温暖；既是一种回忆。

它，既是一种宽恕；包容了一切的不原谅。

朋友之间；拥抱。

心暖，很窝心。

它不是普通的拥抱。

而是发自内心去接纳，宽恕，和包容。

那时的我，真的有种心动的感觉。

你不曾那样的拥抱我，真的让我很感动。

真的意想不到。

拥抱，是世界上最美丽的语言。

它代表了种种的意义。

而那种种的意义，是那么温柔，那么的体贴，那么的窝心，那么的美丽。

即时心情低落，也能一瞬间恢复。

无论是情侣，朋友还是家人，都能运用这美好的语言去表达所爱。

去拥抱，或被拥抱。

你，尝试过了吗？

希望那一天，可以再次得到你的拥抱。

也让我好好的拥抱你。

麻烦不麻烦，是你的抉择。

2009-12-19T16:34:00.004+08:00

麻烦。

什么是麻烦？

朋友会是一种麻烦吗？

在很久以前，有一段让我不想去回忆的事故。

那一次的经历，使我深深感觉到，有时一段你自以为是很了不起的友情，也就只是那么一回事。

从此，我便不再踏入较深的友谊。

为的只是“不必要的麻烦”。

而最近，自己却不知不觉地踏入自己佈下的局。

可笑吧。

可是，我却可以那么的忘我，继续扶持这段预知不了的友谊。

友谊万岁，究竟是啥，究竟是否真实，究竟会维持多久。

那便会是一切随缘。

有时相信，那既是人生的其中一个起点。就是再次尝试。

不想因为一次的挫折而放弃了人生的一个起点。

也不想因为没有了起点，而使生活毫无乐趣。

因此，我勇于再试。

为的只是那些真实的快乐，真实地感觉到你我的友情。

其实，麻烦是自己的心态所造成。

如果你认为那是麻烦，那就是麻烦。

如果你认为那是意愿，那就是快乐。

麻烦不麻烦，是你的抉择。

我终于明了。

sales everywhere......

2009-12-17T01:33:00.003+08:00

Jingle bell Jingle bell Jingle on the way....

yeppie, christmas is around the corner. and sales are all around the places.

pavilion, Times square, Midvalley, One utama... and more and more and more.....

It reminds me is the time to spend spend spend, shop shop shop, cap cap cap.....

This week should be my shopping week, monday to wednesday keep on shopping with different friends. OMG.... nearly broke.

I bought alots, Pants, shirts, dresses, make-ups.... many many and many.

Spending money is just like drinking the water, once a while all gone. nOooOoooOoOooOOo...

The credit card keep swiping without control, when turns back my head then realized i had over spent =( *guess my dad will slap me in anger*

POKGAI.... POCHAN..... is what i kept saying after spending all my money T.T

but the coming days still gotta go out, this worry me. OMG, where can i get the money?

Yes, i found an idea. work for my dad =)

hope he will pay me in good amount, god bless. >.<

tomorrow is resting day, i should stay at home and figure out the website for my dad. and do it properly to get a nice paid ^^ hehe.

errmm.... there is something still worrying, which i haven find rooms.... argh.... so lazy =="

but anyways, this is a MUST. should search by now. aiks.....

God bless.......

oh yeah~~~~~~~~~~~

2009-12-15T03:34:00.003+08:00

oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah!!

what's OH YEAH??

Oh YEAH for saying "BYE" to my final exam on last week, and my soul has been finally released from the SUCK LIFE...(exam+assignment)!!!

oh hell yeah, im still busy during this holiday. everyday go out and spend spend spend!

but that's life =) and im enjoying.

i love to hang out with friends. my lovely friends! im so proud that i have so many good friends just like u all... i love u all so much!!!

Thanks for supporting me when i was in the hardship... thanks.

so sorry for sometime im not hanging out with u guyz, coz i was busying =(

But now i am free, im sure i will be there when u guyz give me a call!! remember! just a call and i will be there.

Christmas is coming, there is nice decoration everywhere! and it is so beautiful and pleasant =)

i love christmas! its giving me a peaceful scene =)

so far im having a free-style life. no works, no studies, no pressure.

But, i guess i gotta back to school on every saturday, for attending the shitty assy subject " Malaysian Studies"!! and yeah~ the assignment =( duhhhh....

However, it's not a big deal for me.

Today, or can be "yesterday", hang out with my buddies (darling and honey) in One Utama, we ate and shopped over there. of course, picturing cannot be left out. =)

i miss the moment and memories that we had for the passed few months. and i wish we can have more and more. darl & lao po, our friendship will last forever, or even will last for the next few centuries..... lol....

and to all my buddies and goodies... i bless our friendship will last forever =)

hohoho..... suddenly so miss the big boob flo. =)

miss her boob so much XD

There is a mission for me to fulfill during this holiday, i hope i can make it, and i guess i would =)

amitoufoooooooooooooooooooooo.....

p/s: i wish i can hit my expectation. mummy, will u bless me? i know u will. and u did. Thx mum, i love u so much. pls always stay beside me and pray for me =) muackz.

please heals me quickly!! im ruin in my life soon =(

2009-12-02T19:23:00.003+08:00

tomorrow exam?

this is the bad moment i had.

im sick and yet i haven do my revision.

should say it is a Revision?? coz i never study this subject before?

whatever, im gonna boost my energy to finish it within a NIGHT!

i am so sick, it has been last for 4 days....

what's wrong with me, final is infront of me, and im still like a half-dead person yelling all the time (coz of flu.... )

last sunday, i was visiting a doctor, telling her that im feeling unwell and body-ache, she gave me some medicine. I thought i could be properly heals within 1 or 2 days. But NO... upset!

it takes me 4 days... or maybe longer to heals. final exam is coming, tomorrow is the test, and im not yet prepare.

Yesterday i've tried to make myself sweat in order to warm my body up. yes, it feels better in the 2nd morning, but feel bad in the afternoon where i was in an air-cond room. my nose stuck and cant breath!!! i wish i can sneeze in the classroom, but since the class is so silent so i gotta stop breath through my nose. Using mouth to breath and talk, so tiring. After the class end, suppose meet up my friend to have a lunch with her, but finally i cant stand with my headache which caused by the flu. i went home. sorry to my friend.

This is the 2nd times im having the exam with the sickness. In the same year!! aiks.... god bless!!

gambateh!

2009-11-24T03:01:00.003+08:00

最近的生活稍微忙碌，也许是因为课业繁忙吧，加上考试真的即将来临。

两个星期的时间，不知是否可以把4个月所学的东西灌输脑袋里。

这几天都早晨才睡，都是课业惹的祸。为了它，真的夜夜难枕。

也因为不会做，得住入朋友家，和他们一起讨论。身边的朋友，真的很厉害，很聪明，最重要的是，他们很勤劳。哪像我，做点不做点，根本就没有在加把劲！啊~~我好懒惰！！！

但是，我也没有懒到最后才抱佛脚啦！

考试即将到了！希望可以顺利及格，踏入第二学期吧！

加油！

im so good eh?

2009-11-09T00:29:00.002+08:00

today i went to OneU with my sister and my bestties, soh soh~

we went there for S.H.E, they are coming to M'sia for promoting their products " OSIM "...

they are so pretty ^^

after all, soh soh came to my house for their assignment, she wanna ask me bout her ass, ngek ngek!

Then, i help her in assignment, i listed down all the points for her..... im so good eh....

and helped her do some research and so on. it is easy for me but hard for her.

But when some designing parts come to me, then it is easy for her hard for me.... haha.

soh soh~ if your assignment gets A remember treat me a meal ya!!

Yan, happy birthday and love u always!

2009-11-01T16:20:00.003+08:00

Just back from Yan's house in this early morning.... then, continue with my sweet dream..

Yesterday is my bestties birthday, i went to her party celebration. Met so many friends over there, took alot pictures and play fun with them, they're still pretty and cute. muackz....

Ok... let's recall back what happen yesterday,i found myself abit drunk, cox my friends forced me to drink one dozen of beer?? hohohoho, luckily i din finish.... but im gone to mad. keep talking freak infront of them. haha. and act like a 3 year old kid screaming on Yan's 8 year old sister. my friends keep laughing on me, how can a 20year old mature lady arguing with a 8 year old kid? hahaha.

In the second morning, we woke up at 7.30am and went for breakfast, one of my friend didn't sleep at the time so he got no mood to eat, haha, pity him ( yesterday was too cold in the midnight, and he got no blanket ^^, luckily i got...hohoho)

*wish Yan happy birthday and happy everyday*

F**k that freaking PC!!

2009-10-30T23:41:00.003+08:00

Gosh.... i was having a BFP laptest on this morning, i thought i can finish it within the hours has been given. But yet IT IS NOT!!! OMG!! im screwed up on it!! WHY?? i knew how to do all the questions, maybe few of it is not that sure for the answer, but i can FINISH IT within the time! BUT NOT!! that freaking asshole(pc) is not function well!!! the excel!! OMG!! i cant click and highlight to plot the graph!

i am really feel so helpless and mad, i spent so much of time in revision but ENDED UP in this f**king situation!!!!

The labtest is carry 50% of the final, that is the purpose of why am i so cared of it! 50% man!! i have lost it!!!!!! i wanna get a better result for this module, but since this case had disappointed me so i really got no mood to continue in study for this module.

after i finish the lab test, i was like " what the hell"?? ..... my hand is still shaking.

Anyways, i've calmed down after a period of time.

Then, i went to shopping in Sunway with CY, Hoong babe, and Jack.

I din buy anything coz i got no money already... that's sad T.T

But i saw a shirt and i decided to own one!! hahaha..... RM99.90.... is that expensive?

Today is so tired, and tomorrow has Malaysian Studies at MORNING, aiks..... im sick of my recent life....

i've caught myself being so lazy and emotional~

2009-10-26T22:57:00.004+08:00

haha, always complaining not enough time for myself, but those are excuses for laziness.

too bad, i haven complete my assignment yet. Ridiculous bad... never mind, i will finish up later soon.

Last 3 days, my friend had stayed in my house for 3 days, other than rushing up the assignment, she also taught me how to do the BFP. Thanks to her i finally understand how to do, although i may get blur for some time. but anyways, i will keep practicing on it until i can handle it!!

Today is a freaking worst day, i spent 2 hours to take my way back after class. It was having rain and caused the JAM last for few hours. thanks god u had made me mad ^^

my class ended up at 5.30pm, but arrived house at 9.30pm, what takes me so long?

not to blame the weather and the traffic jam, coz i went to someone house and wait the time passed by, hahaha. actually is all my fault, i should get myself back earlier, but i hate to stuck in the jam.

After i back to my home, i took my dinner. Then, i saw my mum pressing on her computer.

aiks, i should not get myself into trouble, but i've seen she is so pity when she dunno how to navigate the website. So i teach her! .... ended up with emotional mood. im so frustrated in teaching her how to adjust the layout of the blogger. OMG~~~ im so bad.

so i quickly back to my room and bath. aiks.... im so emotional just now. phew.... luckily i din piss on her just now =="

* still the same, i need money~~~ keep feel like lack of money nowadays..... aiks....

nick vjicic - never ever give up in your life.

2009-10-22T00:46:00.004+08:00

just watched a speech at Youtube.com, the speaker is name Nick Vujicic, he is a no arm no leg guy, but live with hopes. i am really prod of him. how can a people survive without leg and arm? but he can, and he made it. that's touching.

"encouragement can save people life" i am fully agree with this phase. because it is really meaningful and it is a fact. you really can save people life if u give encouragement to the people.

Although life is tough but the choices are in your hand, u make the choices in your own. Yes, there's might be sometimes you feel upset, u might let the tears falling down on your cheek, but after u cried everything is gonna be ok. crying is like washing all your dirt or uncomfortable in your heart, you will feel refreshing when u have finish your cries.

i had learned this lesson. which is more encourage people, it can save people life and your life.

assignment ^^

2009-10-19T02:47:00.002+08:00

finally, i put on my heart on the assignment. Im started to do.

Map, i decided to take 3 questions out of 4, why huh? am i too free?

but anyways, it is my willingness to do, don ask so much la friend ^^

i have started my MAP and finally finish 1 question in a day, really out of my expectation, i thought i can only take one day to finish whole assignment, but CANT!! really hard =="

i used 5 hours more to complete a question, really wasting my time. Found a lot of points, but dunno whether it is suitable to implement on it. aiks. im started to struggle with it.

However, it seem i still have some time for me to do.

God bless me in my assignment!!

Tired but cant sleep.

2009-10-13T02:51:00.002+08:00

i felt tired everyday, but not willing to sleep. is this a kind of illness?

Today is T3's birthday, wish him happy birthday ^^

they were planning for the celebration, im just waiting for their inform. hoho.

Just finish the movie " The Orphan" yesterday, i rated it 8 out of 10, is a good movie, but the story is not advisable for children. Its contained violent and 18sx thingy. Anyways, for an adult like me is acceptable, wakaka.

Not to mention but it is the fact, i have postpone my assignments to other days again +_+

i dunno how can i be so lazy.

somemore going for a trip on this coming friday (maybe)

it is the time to cost me a bump very soon.

wonder why i always cant get to save the money.

im shy and shame to ask my dad for money, but my purse is left not much. @_@

aiks, guess gotta go for ATM machine.

October 30, is an important day for me.

1) Yan's birthday celebration

2) MAP due date.

* must always bared in mind... *

okiesss, is time for sleep ^^ nitez and sweet dream to myself.

i bet tomorrow will be sleepy day for me... (lack of sleep again, 4 hours... enough??)

紧张，时间慢慢的靠近。

2009-10-11T02:40:00.003+08:00

最近的每一天都过得特别的平凡，也另类的快。

不知不觉已经快到十月中了，提交assignments的日期也即将来临。

但是，我却完全起不了劲去完成它。

但是我相信，我会在提交日期之前完成它！

希望它可以顺利过关，拿到不错的成绩！其实，只要及格我就很满意了。

camry ^^ comfortable kimochi

2009-10-07T01:52:00.002+08:00

haha, just heard my friend asking me why every time posted my blogs in the middle of night. haha, gotta say that i only got feel to write it on midnight. nothing wrong right? keke...

last few days was gathering with whole gang of primary classmates, knowing that they all have a very nice days recently. excepted me. =( aiks, busying like hell. ( not to say busy, only felt myself was like busying for something. )

today i was driving my dad's car to school, very excited but nervous as well, keep on worrying any vehicle comes near to me ( dun knock me out >.<) but yet, i was enjoying as well! i like the sound system in the car, the bass mode is so great. im loving it ^^ and the adjustment of the seat, air-cond and so on. it is so cool!!! argh~~ i wish i can drive again!! But, there is always have the disadvantages other than advantages, i couldnt find any parking lot for this huge car!! agrh! no choice, i gotta park very far from the school.... takes me 15min to walk from the car to the school, then walk back to the car under a super huge and hot sun.

after reach my house, having an hour of nap, then my mum called me up for dinner. promised myself not to eat any meat for 1 week but in the end i broke the rules. coz i was eating crab and prawns today ^^ yummy yummy, except the crab =="

as the result coming out, im gonna add another one more day for my penalty!! 8 days for only vegetarian food onwards!! hope i can make it!! ngek ngek!!

im still struggling witn my assignments, feel like giving up soon. not to mention it anymore. messed my mood.

oh hell ya, should i get myself free from the ass**

Hot weather....

2009-10-04T16:42:00.002+08:00

Recently really Hot, even i could feel the heat when i was turning on the air conditional. what a terrible weather nowadays. Many disasters popping up on the earth. Phew..... RIP to all victims of the disaster.

Come back to my assignment, still have not complete yet. Coz' it is really meaningless for me to do it. No mood.... and no ones beside me to guard me, i started spread out my laziness around. aiks.

For my NWS assignment, i am supposed to complete it withing this week for the 3 methods, but it seems i couldnt make it. Keep postpone and postpone, wondering when i can hand out my assignment.

Today is sunday, and it is a sunny day as well, feel like wanted to go out for a walk, but at last still stayed at home watched my japanese series. it is nice and funny.

Evening will be hanging out with some relatives for dinner. wish i can finish my 2nd method in the night, amitoufo~~~~

stress =="

2009-09-28T02:34:00.002+08:00

assignments started and i am so stressed with it. i have no time and no mood. argh~ how can it be! darn!!!

i really have no idea whether i am on the right track, i afraid that the teacher will not approach after checking my assignment. and the worst which i couldn't understand the information of my topic. so, what am i going to write in my assignment? im so blur and stress. although the due date is end of next month and left 1 month for me to complete, but got to finish 3 assignments in a month in apiit is a big and huge problem to me right now. yes, unlike tarc, so enjoyable while doing the assignments. perhaps i need someone to guide me.... aiks.....!!! is there any doors for me to get help~~~~

in this moment, i felt a bit regret that im taking this course in this uni, how i wish i can go back to Tarc or either Help to continue my studies over there. and i also realized that it is impossible for me to have an U-turn. im struggling with that. im lost and im sick of it.

HOW TO GET RID OF IT!!!! GOD DAMN!!!

may wish god will support me till the end of the assignment's war. i wish it will end soon. and i wish i can handle it as well. aiks.....

p/s: just ate sakae sushi at one u, and cost me a bump! haha!

annoucement : $$$ insufficient

2009-09-26T03:13:00.006+08:00

yes, im gonna annouce that im facing financial problem recently, dun keep asking me out ya ^^
sorry to my friends and buddies that i cant afford to hang out with u guyz, and so THANK to my friends who dated me out and caused me spent alot =="
and yet my mum is nagging me today, my credit card had swapped under the border line. ishh... speechless, but it is the time for me to control my own. anti-shopping!!!!!!!!!
and no expensive food as well... gosh!!

cheersssss.... life can be going well without money too, no worries .... ^^

* just bought a purse with my buddies, we using the same brand of purse! and we bought the same panty, RENOMA... keke ( yan & hao, next target will be..... same cellphone? remember ask kok wei to have too. )

懒散的我。

2009-09-24T19:27:00.002+08:00

劝自己骂自己要努力去达成
到最后依然是一点也没动静
为什么问自己那么的没毅力
只会想只会说可是却没行动

任劳任怨过一天
嘻嘻哈哈每一天
提交日子近一天
心里焦急又一天

但是却没有任何反省。

哎~~~我的assignments啊~何时才能完成呢？

房间瞬间变干净很多但还是乱~~哈哈！

2009-09-19T21:14:00.002+08:00

今天的我真的特别反常，竟然自己收拾房间和洗厕所！！哇靠！
对，花了三个小时来整理自己的房间和洗自己房的厕所。
真的，很累！加上早上去了老豆公司帮忙~~我好乖噢~也很怪啊~

已经好久没有自己打理房间了，一大堆东西都乱成一片，真的很看不顺眼。
原本想等人来整理的，怎知一个两个都在忙，加上明天有朋友来，再不打理真的会把人吓晕。
其实，整理了也不会很整齐，只是没那么多灰尘而已~哈哈！
还是有很多东西乱成一堆，因为乱乱才有一种温暖的feel~

打扫完后才发现自己竟然还没有吃晚餐，已经九点半了！！
家人们都在外面吃了，只好叫他们打包！
过分耶！竟然没有问我吃了没，自己在外面享受！！啊~~~

yamcha kaki 变 yamsing kaki

2009-09-18T01:37:00.004+08:00

今天是放假前的最后一天了，放学后还是得塞着车回去。
哎~~~~
晚上便是不错的一天，跟了一班 "yamcha" kaki 到 The Curve去喝一杯。
真的很爽下。

我和燕都脸红了，四条水都癫了起来，把钱堆在一起拍照，假扮破产的模样。
点了酒，嘻嘻哈哈的说了起来，燕死命笑，笑到连隔壁座都望着我们。
而我却一直被他们说我死命放飞机，飞机场都不够我用了，那也是的....谁叫我忙啊~~~哈哈！
拍了蛮多picture的。
不错啦，偶尔出来聚一聚。
下个礼拜二又去唱k咯~~~哈哈！

STress X_X and wonderful night in CY's house...

2009-09-17T01:00:00.002+08:00

i believed most of them had started their assignments, so im rushing my assignments too.
In this semester i gotta work out with 3 assignments, MAP, DWDS and NWS....
i've start my NWS's assignment 1st, coz i assumed that it will be the easiest assignment among 3 of them. Yes, it is the easiest, but still Hard for me. IS DAMN HARD!!!

Yesterday, i went to CY's house overnight and tried to gather all information that i needed in a Night. Anyways, it seems that is impossible to make it. 3 of us keep chatting while surfing the internet. Cy keeps watching her video clip, im keep chatting and animation-ing, and chuah keeps promoting her sister in the FB.... aiks....
finally we ended up with " GIVE UP LA" then sleep.

keke, 3 people sharing with a queen size bed, cant turn really much coz there's a limitation space for us. and i was trying to sleep at the side, but then someone pushed me into the middle and wanted me to be their boster. argh... how bad.

we played quite alot, hugging each other and touched here and there. haha. lame =="
Somemore someone was having nightmare in the middle of the night.

" Don't Go..." ( not really remember what she had said, coz i was sleeping. )
" don't go by slapping me.... not exactly slap on my face but NEARLY slap on it, how dangerous.... =="
then i asked whether she is awake or still in the dream, she answered me... " nothing, nothing, ...continue sleep..." by opening her eye =="
then CY pop up and said " Suddenly like that one la she....."

wakaka.... we even can chat while we were sleeping, one was dreaming, one was bluring, one was suddenly pop up a word. hahaha, funny!

In the 2nd day, nobody wanna wake up even the alarm had done its mission.
Im the first one who woke up, coz wanna bath. Then woke up one by one....
our eye really looks like Panda's eye, and our eye bag is bigger than usual.... ish....

Anyways, we still attend the class in the morning ^^

我爱你，秘密。

2009-09-12T19:54:00.005+08:00

最近的心情真的很沉重，知道了那消息后的心情更沉重。
好像每一件事都隐瞒了许多实事，而自己却以为自己了解了全部，但其实知道的那些都不肯定是不是那所谓的实事。

也更不想知道那是不是真的，怕知道了会更加的迷惘。
不想确定也不想猜测，之前的经验已使自己无法前进。
更何况现在的比之前更复杂百倍。

秘密，是最好的答案。

=)

没心情。

2009-09-11T19:46:00.002+08:00

昨天和今天的夜晚，心情有点忧闷，就那么一丁点儿事也可以令我很烦躁。
我很讨厌被人命令，很讨厌被人叫去做不想做的事，更何况我今天真的很没有心情。
头也很痛，什么节目都cancelled了。
一烦起来什么事都很不对劲，也起不了劲。
与其去想有的没的倒不如睡觉，但又被人指去做东西。
我真的很想痛哭大骂一场。

有时我真的很想搬出去一个人住，反正在家也像似一个人住。
但是金钱上不允许。
很烦，很躁，很想哭。
为什么人的心情可以那么善变。

朋友们！生日快乐！

2009-09-10T01:04:00.003+08:00

九月份真的有很多朋友生日啊~~
我的钱包真的越来越空了。

不得不将我买电话的职务postpone到下个月！
啊~

但无论如何，生日快乐吧！

昨天住了朋友家，今天轮到她住来我家！哈哈！有趣！

对不起哦，阿姑和阿禡。

2009-09-03T22:20:00.002+08:00

有时站在别人的角度想想，更会容易去宽恕和体谅。
有时要是你一直去在意，那么无论人家做什么也不会有什么好感。
那么，何不放下执著去接受呢？
其实，每个人的相处方式和表达方式不同，所以得学着适应。
我还不成熟。
对一切事情都下了很快的结论。
如果慢慢去分析，也许就不会那么困难了去适应了。
原来，就是这么简单。

我不再那么幼稚了。
但是，偶尔对好友发泄下也不赖。哈哈。
对不起哦，又得让你们听我喷话了。

Cold weather... nice to sleep ^^

2009-09-01T20:32:00.002+08:00

today's weather is so cold... rainning all the day, and i'd liked to enjoy the coldness ^^ excited!
and yet, i was feeling wanna eat ice blended, hahahaha! somehow, my friend dun wanna accompany me to eat.... haiz..... bad bad la soh soh.... maybe u're sleeping... haiz!

i thought today will be a black day for me coz i was having same dicussion group with Mr.Dong, somemore we still talk quite a lot, but luckily didn't happen any weirdo thingy!! prayss....

last day of August... goodbye to my hp's number

2009-08-31T21:14:00.002+08:00

最后一天了，都离不开黑运的摆布，我的手机号码真的与我脱离了。
跟了我五年，终于说分手了！
真的很舍不得。
当然，很多朋友也联络不上了。
缘分，就此画上句点。

昨天，去了慧文家，探望了babi，它长牙了啊！当然同时也学会了咬人！！ sohsoh啊~~教教你的狗啦！跟了老友去吃一餐，心情也没那么忧闷了！

九月的来临，希望会更好！

god bless us....

2009-08-29T00:56:00.003+08:00

Today class ended at 12.15pm, planned to go somewhere else to relax.
But then seems like no people can date, all of them have their own appointment. So, ended up with going 1 utama with Jowel and Wilson.

We are suppose to Sing K in Neway, but found that there is no more K lunch promotion, and the normal price for a person is about rm30. So, we just went to eat better.

Of coz, i bought quite alot, such as Mask, some accessories and so on. Spend me about rm100+ a day!

I back at Evening, having KFC as my dinner, then online for a while to check my mail. Then, i prepared to sleep early, really tired cause of lacking sleep.
Suddenly, Hoong called me! i picked up the phone and knew that she is having problem with her car. Tyre Bonjek!!! walao......
No choice i gotta help her cause she is new in KL.
Before im going out my dad said he wanna follow me as well, coz he knew that i dunno how to change the tyre.
Luckily he followed me, cause Hoong's car has edited! her tyres is using sport "ryme". So, need a specific key to open it. Thus, i must send her back to house. She left her car over there and will pick up in the 2nd morning.

We're so Black in this month, she lost her Parker and having tyre bonjek. and i lost my mobile phone and kena car clamped..... haiz.... wish the luck will comes to us soon.... GOD BLESS....

full house with Jimuis

2009-08-27T00:27:00.008+08:00

This is where we have been..... memorable day ^^ 25-8-2009

These are what we ate....

Capturing nice pictures ^^

Gathering day with my Jimui'z... we kept taking gossip, hahaha! really enjoyable!

Im so proud that i have such friends like u both! thank for being my friend!

After i stepped into my new environment i really have the thought of giving up all i have. I guess i have get used of having u guyz to stay beside of me, we talked gossip, we talked heart, we played, we cried, we crazy around. we argue......?? no, no argue. haha. That's why i became so weak. get used of having u guyz to sharing the suffers with me. But i got to say, this is what we called friend. No worries, i will still ask u guyz out to listen my complaination ^^"

careless caused the money fly away....

2009-08-25T01:22:00.003+08:00

i was so careless today, i forgot to display my car ticket!!!! that's why my car being clamped!! what the heck!!! rushing back to my car to see whether is it being clamp. and yes, it did! i was so mad.... i cant stand for my money just flying away with that small matter. arghhhh.... im so careless!!! somemore my dad not going to pay for me.... im going to become a beggar soon. left rm 20+ in my purse for this month!! i haven get my new handphone!!! argh..... now i realised money is super duper important to me!!!

Anyways, something cannot change, just accept the fact! ya, im stupid!
so now onwards, i wont repeat the mistake again!! ..... hope so =="