self-Hatred?

Is there another way of Love?
yes, is Hate.

Giving myself a pressure to act like nothing.
can i make it? i doubt.
Trying not to stand against myself, because i might be mad in someday.
Feeling down every night and listen to sad music, i guess im facing some inbalanced psychological problem.
Some people have sad feelings just once in a while, and others may have sad feelings pretty often.

when the feel of sadness is coming to you, there is a Hate appeared.....
then you will feel like the darkness has come, everything is goin to be end up very soon....
wat's made me hv dis kinda thoughts?

Ppl may think dat im crazy but ya is truth.
i am totally different in day & nite.
so guess wat, i hv two of myself.
pretty good rite.

i rele like to lock up myself in some where there is no one can bother me,
i love to be alone sometimes, i love to be nth.
no nid to get bother or to be bother.

yes, self-injured. i tried.
it's exciting when u feel the pain, producing excitments when u're bleeding.
left out the scars..... ya, dat's cool.
but wat's actually?
there is always a purpose when u're doin sth.
to let some one cares bout u? or to let some one to avoid u? or to tell everyone dat u r rele MAD?
i NID cares! but who's care?
none of them....
felt sorry to myself by using dis kinda foolish way to let ppl felt pity on u.
it's doesnt works at all.
wat an idiot!

not to think, not to say, not to do.
save the time, save the money, save the earth.
look at the mirror and think carefully,
not ppl dun wanna care bout u, is u're not letting urself to gv ppl care.
think wisely.... u will get the answer.
Dun regret wat u hv did b4, take it as a lesson to improve urself.
feeling down? then try ur best by finding a way to rescue urself from the darkness....
there is always an exist in the darkness.....