有点累了，怎么办？

这几个月却是很多感想。
越是甜，越是爱，就越痛。
太过于在乎，反而让自己被一点小事而伤痕累累，满脸泪水。
有时就只要那一句很简单的话，一封几个字的讯息，就会把心情降到谷底。
是太过于在乎吗？
这样的心情；双方都辛苦。

Year of 2011

Just a glance, another year has comes.

Another sem to graduate.

Another life is coming.

I just couldn't imagine that we are going to separate. Not to say it has been "ensure". But it has a big possibility. Holy shit i really cant imagine. Years we have been together. It is not a long period but it seems we have passed through lot of moments. Was recalled back the day you called me up talking about our future, we cried cause we cannot foreseen our future, it is a mystery.

Looking forward to my new semester. HAH!! i felt that im so depressed on it. Guess i could not scored a good grade for my final year. Lose my confident badly due to my previous sem results as well as the legendary FYP. I got a STRICT, MEAN, EMOTIONAL, HIGH EXPECTATION advisor with me. Im so sad and afraid to meet her. AIKS. Wonder why others are so good with their advisor. ='(

Challenges ...

More and more challenges,

more and more to fight for,

more and more to think,

more and more tears to fall,

more and more white hair to grows.....

More and more...

Yeah, that's life.

Awful year.

It seems that i've been disappeared for some time. Was preparing many stuffs for previous months. However, busy life comes to the end and started my break =)

For the passed few months, many bad things happen. Especially during November, almost every night i've dropped my tears. It was so suffocating, my exam, my assignments, my final year project and my dad health's problems. Very sad to know that, he was having a heart attack everyday for 2-3 hours average. It can be a very dangerous, almost able to take away his life. Doctor was advised to do operation but get refused. He insists his right, his choice, his life. But he never knows that this would make us worry.

Until now, 4 months passed, even though he is keep telling us that he is getting better. But at behind my mum told me he still suffered the pain every night before sleep. The pain was indescribable. Cant breath, cant talk, cant hear......

and she told me he may left anytime. and this always make me cry.

Not only my dad, my dearest aunt also facing severe health problem and needed to do operation. On her brain. A decease called "Epilepsy", her daughter called me few days ago that she was entered Sentosa Hospital.

Tomorrow i still have to go to the hospital for listening what doctor says about her condition.

Gosh, this year was a bad year for me. Luckily got my babe beside me giving me lots of support and encouragement.

and now.... i hope everything will be alright. God bless. amitoufo...

难。

尝试去习惯没有你的日子。

但是更让我想起你。

原来改掉习惯，真的很难。

MidPoint presentation

it has been a while i did not visit my blog here.

The month of November, seems a worst and unlucky month for me.

why dis i say so?

Here the lists....

1. Car Accident

2. Three Assignments due date

3. Two Presentation, one of them i get a bad result (guessing).

4. MY FYP (final year project) Midpoint. This was the ONE i real worry about it.

Final year now, should doing for the graduation report. Was selected Xixili Intima as my project backbone; which to increase support services and improve their online performance; was suppose to interview with their supervisor but get rejected. AIKS.

This is not the matter, what's bother me is " I get a strict advisor for my project". The supervisor for my project is a pleasant lady, However; advisor is a strict, fierce and mean lady.... arhhh... what a big contrast huh.

This week is the week of my midpoint presentation, in which i have to prepare all my presentation materials and present them to my Advisor face to face, one to one. "GOSH"

p/s: Every final year student is a must to do fyp and guided by own supervisor and advisor.

Moreover, HER requirements are higher than every advisor did, I CONFIRMED. Most of the student requested to complete their fyp untill chapter 3, but for me is exception, "CHAPTER 5". i should claps and wooooraaaay that i got a best advisor for pushing me that fast. THANKS.

However, i still left one more chapter to go, which is chapter 5 "Research Analysis". I wish i could finish it before Monday. Then left 1 more day for me to get myself prepare.

Another 2 weeks come to my final. Yeahhh..... is time to be a book worm.

情绪化

很低落，低落到心情跌进谷底。
无法叙说，因为根本就不能用语言来说明。
只是希望能够得到不问原因的安慰。

我也希望自己的情绪不会影响到对方，自己也很想逃得远远。
但是，就是走不了。
很讨厌这样，
就因为这样，我做不了该做的东西。
很懊恼。

我想一个人在适当的时候静一静，把所有不快乐，压抑的感情，通过泪水来舒缓。

现在一个人。
就是这个时候。

伤痕累累。

这个星期真是血光之期呀。

扭伤了颈，磨伤了手，撞伤了脚等等。

偏体鳞伤。

瘀伤满体。

天啊~

加上assignment之期已到。

可是真的很懒的动它。

总之，就是衰呀。