Last day of July; bad luck still with me.

Today early morning, suppose to wake early to attend Moral class. But however, my alarm doesnt wake me up, i thought i had set my alarm yesterday but not!!! so i rushed everything up and prepare to get my car to school.
Unfortunately i cant find my car key, called my mum and she told she had driven off, asking me to take camry. OK, fine, coz im in a rush.

Once i start the car, i reverse.

"PONNNG.....!!!!" Guess what.....
i bang a car, is Waja.
Waja bengkak already, i sweat, why so lousy. I faster opened my door and look for my camry. There are many scratches ==" my dad will definitely shout on me.

Luckily there is no driver in Waja, i drove my car park to somewhere around the Waja, coz i was too nervous until clueness to do in the next. I stopped at somewhere and think how how how...
Then, i saw the owner of camry is taking their car off. I dunno whether they did noticed there is "bengkak" on the door of waja. i just prayed they did not notice!!!!

I still have not tell my dad, i guess later i will do.

God bless me.....
The end july, still kena this kind of thingy, i really speechless....

JULY - worst month for me.

I am just a very normal person having a very normal moment in everyday.

But why should i suffered like this in this July???

My dad sick....

Loan delays....

Result dropped into 2nd class.......

My dad is not in good condition, he cant walk in fast speed, cannot carry weighted thing, keep on feeling dizzy, cant breath smooth... many and many....

With all these signs made me feel so worry and frustrated. i could do anything for him.

It is going to start my level 3, suppose to get my loan on August, so i can pay my bankdraft for my school fee and etc. But guess what? Just got the info from the administration, telling us that 1 year only will release 2 times of payment. WTF??? which mean i gotta wait until October only i can get my freaking money, 4th payment will be coming year April, last payment will be coming year October... and that time i am gradated. What for i get the money??? Wondering how their system goes? is it that worse? so called a Advance school? an IT academic? OMG!!! how can it be? i was being lied by this freaking Uni!

OK, fine, maybe because of the government problem. FINE. i will go and get some part time job.

Just two days passed by, i claimed down. Open my lappie and check some updates on my result.

GUESS WHAT AGAIN????

My grade dropped!!

last 3 weeks, result was released. Being showed that two 1st class, two 2nd class, i was so happy, because my result had improved alot. after 1 week, result was under pending??? WTF, play us a fool? OK, fine, i will be waited and see what will it be. I guess wont be too much different.

OK, 2 weeks passed. Open up the webspace and login.

This time i am really screwed up this fucking APIIT. From grade 15 falls to 12!!! dropped 3 grades!!!! I am so freaking disappointed. If my result really that shit why dont just show the actual result from the beginning?

whatever... i am HOPELESS.

HOPELESSSSSSSSSSSSSSS........

This month really is a WORST month for me in this year.... by they way... =(

yelling for money!!!

Just found that people around me are all craving for money.
For the usage of owning a branded bag, better dine-in.... etc.

So am I.
But I plan not to overspend. Save the money for my future usage~! yeah!

lori 被偷了。

是因为我爸前阵子太幸运，所以这下子得让他体会一些不运吗？

心脏不好，已经是他最难受的体会。

这回，又得让他尝试罗里被偷的心疼吗？

他心脏已经是不好了，难道又得让他感受闷闷的心疼吗？

今天，我睡的很迟。

踏出房门的第一步，传来香香的早餐味。

去到了厨房，看到我爸在准备早餐给我们。当时，我还不知道罗里的事。

过后，我妈说要到警察局走一趟，我还想说是不是说错了，应该是医院吧。

后来我姐才一一告诉我。

这时，我心情真的很复杂。

很没心情。

为什么会这样。

我真的很怕，再次失去的感觉不想再体会。

害怕，害怕。

真的打从心里的害怕。

早前失去了，难道我还得体会再一次一样的心情吗？

或许如果真的发生，我也许真的彻底绝望了。

就连活下去的希望也消失不见。

她告诉我，如果他真的晕倒，送他进院。

如果手术是五十五十，他要回家。

如果真的发生什么事.... 那样的如果，我不想听。

我真的不想面对。

我要逃避。

我要把一切的不好如果都毁掉。

其实，我真的很害怕。

害怕失去双亲，失去生命的支柱。

如果真的失去，或许我的人生也跟着毁了。

好想哭。

我真的好害怕这样的结局。

Money Insufficient....

How i wish there will be RM1million with me every year. One million in a year. So that i do not have to worry about lacking of money. But that's a miracle. I should not think too much unless i really put bunch of effort in earning money. Hell ya, im a lazy bug. Getting a job and work happily is the hardest part for me. I do not like working, especially under people, i do not like to being force, do not like to being nag.... blah blah blah, but who else will like?

School is going start, it is time for me to prepare and proceed to level 3!!!! urghhh.... nervous.
and also the FEE!!!!!! god damn it so damn expensive la...... WTF!!
where can get the money to PAY!!! since my loan haven come yet!!! god bless it faster comes to me la...
2 more days gotta travel to Singapore with friends, another rm800 fly away, maybe more than that.... gosh.... only for trips... rm3K already fly away........ =(
>.<
i am really a BIG money spender!!!!
but hopefully i can afford!!!!
daddy~~~~

heartbeat.

aiks. it has been quite a while i din hear my heartbeat.

even for now im still hesitate isn't it came across from somewhere in my part of body.

seriously, im quite confusing for my current situation. i dunno how does it feels. is it happy? is it sad, or is it making me worry?

im trying not to step deeper. and i also dunno whether im in the depth or what? i am just so worried. of course, i keep pursuing myself this is just a normally thingy. treating different way to different person. i am believe everyone is doing what i said. but the way i did, is it too special to "someone"? only my heart will know. but im not dare to ask. and avoiding something that i know will it will hurts when i know the truth.

i am try to make it common as everyones will do.

but sometimes it is very hard to accept. the way you talk to me, the way you threaten me, to me is just so special, we re not that kind of relationship. but we just did what they did. haha. why? is it weird? i dun wanna talk more. just wanna keep in heart and think wisely.

and keep listen to my heartbeat. is it increasing or just like normal...

开心和幸福

这期的考试成绩还不赖，进步了少许。

感谢我的队友们，froggie，wilson, 和红宝贝!

感谢你们以来的支持和鼓励！当然还有我的老婆们和死党们！

最近的生活还蛮平凡的，没有什么起伏。

但是，我可一直旅行哦！

也该宣布破费了！

去了普及岛回来又去马六甲，新加坡等！

但是，真的很开心。

很开心和我的老婆宝贝们一起游玩。

只是，分离的心情是那么的舍不得。

分割的一段时期，真的有点难熬，但是只能尽量习惯没有你们的存在。

因为，你们可不能一直陪伴着我吧。

一直那么觉得。

尤其是你。哈哈！

习惯，真的让人觉得毛骨悚然。

也许是真的习惯，有时还会怀疑是否产生了错觉？

但是，爱着你们当然是一定的啦！

老婆们，我爱你。

献给我的老婆们~

大令姑姑(weiting)，蜜糖老婆(jowel)，性感宝贝(shoong)，甜心婶婶(flo)，dear燕燕(chuiyan)。

幸福时刻，从认识你们开始。